Shay! :D

Staring into space because I miss you. That bittersweet feeling. :( I don’t think I’ll be sleeping early tonight.

Fucking dumb to trust you and not get a job. Irony.

You’re a jerk, I never hear from you/news about you recently. But deep inside, I know that there’s something that lingers. And that really kills me. I don’t see anyone as guys anymore, guys = ‘girls’ or morons. I’m not les, lol.

I dreamt of you again! :( Somehow it started out at tanahmerah (or perhaps where I started to remember) we became friends & talked…. & we talked about our past; how you added me on fb; your loser genting trip and stuff. We were on the train & we were deciding where to go. Suddenly some girl in red ISH tee came over. Shit our batch one. Then, you said it was ky’s friend. Somehow I looked ard and saw ky. His face. Filled with disappointment, so I went away. Like go to another train cubicle. We ended up gg to changi beach. It was freaking scary & somehow siao one. Then 2 gangster approached us. We fight. You were madly injured & I brought you bk to the mrt. Somehow you were the size of my Gigi & then I was able to hold you in my hand. Like a baby HAHAHA. your neck was injured? I suggested to go to changi hospital. :///// then somehow you wanted to buy 4 iPad size calculator & 4 normal ones. You asked me to use your money. But I fork out instead. I only could remember that how much I wanna be your support….

& I woke up and realised that I still miss your presence.. Man. ~_~

HONESTLY, fuck fuck fuck fuck.

PISSED W/ THE WORLD. Yeah okay, you bad mood you kp me for what?!!!!!!!

You know what? Just forget it. I don’t wanna think anymore… I don’t know what is what and I hate being so not confident. :/ and I always have this issue/problem of thinking of you whenever things crops up.

I know that I shouldn’t regret, cus ‘at a moment in time, I really wanted it’.

Wthell honestly, always say friends will be by your side no matter what. Go through everything and everything. I really don’t know, what is happening to me now really doesn’t prove so.

Vivian got kiat, steph got weiqi, belle got Yangzhi. Everyones busy with work + boyfriend. And to be truthfully speaking, I’m not really happy being single you know. Effed up by my decision again. EFF. yeah I know, all of you say what…If I didn’t give him up, I’ll not be with you all.

But you know what? The attention I got from him is far more than all of you add up together.

And I know whoever reads this will be really pissed off, but really. Stand in my shoes. Anyways this is a secret tumblr. So whatever….

The only not regretful thing.. Is that altho I ruined my life. :| you’re obviously happier with your act cool gang now. Which brings me to another point. I fuck hate being naive and fairytale-like..how I pity everyone, how I think that everything is nice and everyone have innergoodness no matter what they do. I pity murderers, pity people who have adulteries, pity many others.. I REALLY HATE MYSELF LIKE THIS. damn it rants rants rants.

Another rant, I hate it when people just say how much they wouldn’t want to be with their current partner for another 60 years. Maybe it’s common for the whole world to think so like this. And my another naive thought is that when you date, you will think of marrying the person and walk though life with them. Really fairytale-like eh? :( :( really ridiculous? I still believe in 恋爱是以结婚为前提. I feel sorry for those who believes that their current relationship won’t last forever, you won’t feel the real bliss, the maximum xing4 fu3.

Please, Please treasure those beside you.

I really hate life now. Down period.

Ongseuleeongongongongong!

To alot of people (cus many are pissing me off), stop asking me ‘then how’, STOP. I’m not the one who suddenly can’t go, not the one who is not free for most days, not the one who don’t give a damn.

And I repeat, NOT SPECIFICALLY TO ONE PERSON, CUS MANY SIMULTANEOUSLY ARE DOING THIS.

Go eat my ongseuleeongong smiley face! >:C

You know what? I lost count. & I really don’t wanna quarrel anym. Idk how he will feel.